Glandular fever and my abrupt healing (angels play)
I have re posted the 4000 word explanations. because i took it down due to some girl was not me and def not a wayshower or of any kind of higher state of mind even, pure societal.
she said dont get cocky you get bouts and it stay with you for life ( i already knew that i have had it years ago not this intense ( AS INTENSE AS THE FIRST DAYS UNTIL THE EVENT!) though) , this helped to drag me back down on sunday a bit and having to be in uni logical minding.
the main thing iv noticed is state of mind ! before the event lower now higher ( most the time! hence why instead of only 4 hours a day i can stay awake all day- buzzing with light)
this is a reply i made to the post. i decided to put this here as a quick summation as i took this page away due to the little fever hit (half n hour) i had around 6pm, this night ( sunday 27/05/2012) which made me think for a bit i was going right back into it, i REALLY DONT think (i am not this bracket is written the next morning (monday morning) no fever in the sleep nothing im def better) thats going to be happening. since now some music and happyness and higher mind yet and higher mind yet again has subsided that fever quickly!). i will repost the original 4000 word writing i had up below this comment. see now iv been talkin positive things with people and listening to awsome music the fever well subsided again. and i know its going to keep having little hits
THE POINT is and people took it to mean complete healing for ever etc.
i did ! heal in one day and did heal in that instant to a basic full polarity swap! from this low state of mind now higher state of mind as usual.
not cocky what has happened has happened. i wrote 4000 words on it. i thought
ohyeh its going then.
just because i still have it .. haha doesnt mean it wasnt astounding and monumental what occured. healed instantly, once i could reach the state of mind to be clear in the head.
i feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better,... i did heal
in basically a minute (angel touching experience) not my fault if you take that wrong like i did at the time to think COMPLETELY finsihed bang, but as you will see it was massive change, quantum leep, complete turn around, i was completely free of it and today. all i had was a little fever hit just before (sunday 6pm for half n hour :S err i was in constant fever before the event). i dont have the symptoms IN ANYWAY NEER WHAT I DID.
i just hope the > I< dont let the fever
mentally bring me back down into it,
i keep noticing HOW HUGE a role being
in ahigher state of mind has.
neither of you have a clue
have you read the 4000 words? to you it must seem like nothing happened because your
not me when i say i still 'have' glandular.
this is why i have to stay mentally strong others keep
dragging me back into it by saying anything other than positive things.
oh look im up at *:30 pm and before the event i couldnt stay awake more than 4 hours a day, now im awake all day.
>END OF COMMENT<
wow i just realized now on monday morning 9am ... healed within ..... 7. days..... im a 7th heaven indigo..(bringer of)
she said dont get cocky you get bouts and it stay with you for life ( i already knew that i have had it years ago not this intense ( AS INTENSE AS THE FIRST DAYS UNTIL THE EVENT!) though) , this helped to drag me back down on sunday a bit and having to be in uni logical minding.
the main thing iv noticed is state of mind ! before the event lower now higher ( most the time! hence why instead of only 4 hours a day i can stay awake all day- buzzing with light)
this is a reply i made to the post. i decided to put this here as a quick summation as i took this page away due to the little fever hit (half n hour) i had around 6pm, this night ( sunday 27/05/2012) which made me think for a bit i was going right back into it, i REALLY DONT think (i am not this bracket is written the next morning (monday morning) no fever in the sleep nothing im def better) thats going to be happening. since now some music and happyness and higher mind yet and higher mind yet again has subsided that fever quickly!). i will repost the original 4000 word writing i had up below this comment. see now iv been talkin positive things with people and listening to awsome music the fever well subsided again. and i know its going to keep having little hits
THE POINT is and people took it to mean complete healing for ever etc.
i did ! heal in one day and did heal in that instant to a basic full polarity swap! from this low state of mind now higher state of mind as usual.
not cocky what has happened has happened. i wrote 4000 words on it. i thought
ohyeh its going then.
just because i still have it .. haha doesnt mean it wasnt astounding and monumental what occured. healed instantly, once i could reach the state of mind to be clear in the head.
i feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better,... i did heal
in basically a minute (angel touching experience) not my fault if you take that wrong like i did at the time to think COMPLETELY finsihed bang, but as you will see it was massive change, quantum leep, complete turn around, i was completely free of it and today. all i had was a little fever hit just before (sunday 6pm for half n hour :S err i was in constant fever before the event). i dont have the symptoms IN ANYWAY NEER WHAT I DID.
i just hope the > I< dont let the fever
mentally bring me back down into it,
i keep noticing HOW HUGE a role being
in ahigher state of mind has.
neither of you have a clue
have you read the 4000 words? to you it must seem like nothing happened because your
not me when i say i still 'have' glandular.
this is why i have to stay mentally strong others keep
dragging me back into it by saying anything other than positive things.
oh look im up at *:30 pm and before the event i couldnt stay awake more than 4 hours a day, now im awake all day.
>END OF COMMENT<
wow i just realized now on monday morning 9am ... healed within ..... 7. days..... im a 7th heaven indigo..(bringer of)
Original "4000" word writing i had written and took down due to the half hour fever scare lol.. shhh :P at least im right though in the end :D i really dont think ill be going back into this anywhere!!!! neer what it was before the event.. i just was weak minded an totally freaked out for half n hour thinking ohno what if im going back into it :P
hi my name is ben couwenberg
Firstly non of
this ‘defies’ medical industry or defies medicine. Merely medical industries
knowledge.
You need to remember
the key words, you may have to re read due to this.
Thats how you will follow
the remarkable nature of the healing!!!!!!
on Monday 14/05/2012 i suddenly
had to leave the computer lab as for the last 20 minutes my energy completly
zapped out of me it seemed, i thought oh im tired hey ye hi have been working
hard making consciousazine.com
i suddenly felt nausea and had to leave..
As it turned out the tiredness was from glandular fever which i suspected
the very next day since i immediately couldn’t sleep and didn’t barely at all
that night and had had glandular years ago.
next day i am hammered! Cant do
anything tiny coughs (no flem was present no snot, i only coughed from dry
throat lack of hydration relaxation) hurt my head intensely! All the other
symptoms of glandular sore muscles glands etc, cant remember if diahrea was present that day but every other
day or night after it def was.
any who glandular takes weeks and
sometimes months to finish up and thats well known.
Yaa i thought of fuck
here we go...not cool.
I decide as currently at the time i was in a
purifying stage (seems others were to anyway not making a correlation anything
but personal) to try heal myself.. so i had little money left till Friday, went
and got some stuff like turmeric had manuka honey bought cinnamon, bananas,
lemons, there may have been something else i cant remember but the points a
little mute so meh.
ah so i took all this stuff .. ehh good effects? Well im
sure in the long run but i didn’t take much of it all you know i wasn’t going to
eat turmeric and cinnamon all day haha i ate one lemon and ah yes a shallot
onion and some ginger raw..
ah that day next day that night etc PAIN.
Lol didn’t do anything much at all.
ok the pattern was exactly the same
daily. I said only once or twice no get up and go do this or that etc (only once
or twice because it was futile lol) but i couldn’t past the mark stay un nausic,
fever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shivering while boiling – insert all symptoms here.
the mark was about the same every day from Tuesday 15/05/2012. Only stay
open eyed sitting or standing or lying for 5 hours max, in that 5 hours i felt
pretty bad though (4 hours of anything resembling normal functionality- i mean
you cant even concentrate! I didn’t take in anything from my applications
development study lol in 3 days of this haha) nausic, head hurt when i tiny
coughed (one off coughs), zapped of energy. 5 hours every day i watched the hour
on the clock according to when i entered university and left or woke up and
drove to university and left
university.
the number 5 hour being tremendously“fucked” or hellish.
i didn’t have concentration to even bother to see ok its 11:30 and im
leaving at 3:30
but its a quite accurate approximation 5 hours tops! in the
5thstruggle starts with
nausea etc so i try see if it will fade for a while but no so i go.. end up
leaving in that 5th hour.
POINT HERE: 4
hours of anything resembling normal functionality During the day times:
Tuesday 22/05/2012
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday 25/05/2012
Friday around 4pm i go to hospital
after my apps development exam! Which was a painful thing luckily only multiple
choice, unfortunately in my state painful.
in waiting room couldn’t not
close eyes and ‘try’ to sleep in a painful manner.
nurse? Counter lady sees
my pain gives me 2 panadol whilst i wait for doctor.
that would have been
awesome before the hectic pain, and then suddenly the doctor comes lol.. ahh
cool haha
im extremely sweating and shaking while hot; fever. She asks me
heaps of questions incase its
TB. I say from start no glandular fever, she
says yeh it could be. This took a while, then she told me wait for your blood
results which may take an hour or more, i go ok, LOL GOES TO LISTEN to music! In
more comfortable car, STUFF waiting rooms the place of insanity boredom
right?
get to my car start to feel better quickly after a few minutes due
to double panadol. I actually felt
pretty good the pain was well subsided the pills were doing their job
J went and dropped surfboards at my storage shed. Get back go wait
in waiting room for a bloody hour and a half, still feel good though.
results: glandular fever, however have another blood test ina
week. She was concerned because my eratic talk which was from my shaky
insides and fever when she first examined me and crazy sweatiness, that it may
be more, i was not able to be relaxed i was showing signs of anxiety and all
..mm ya think.
POINT before the panadol (and again that night !)
extreme! Glandular fever, because i wanted to heal myself and didn’t have money
to buy panadol so i thought i never purchase it yet i did after my final release
that night after the result go get some to find it being $3.. heh. Oh by the way
i took another panadol sometime that night before i had a short sleep and then
woke up again as usual to lay in pain.
Anyway, Friday night 25/05/2012,
absolutely horrid as the other nights and i even had an extra crazy shaky
session i barely ended with controlling..
so Saturday morning 26/05/2012
8 am earliest i got up because the least i slept and the car got wet inside it
was a horrid scenario i slept next to the hospital“incase”+ plus driving to much
for me at that time..
Saturday starts of pretty much feeling as the other
days, except it was great to get out of that car which was stinky an wet and ew
fuck man... sweaty t shirts and stuff..
air was nice an fresh an no
people! Around (i don’t like being around people that much these days since the
paralabolic human awakening iv experienced aka spiritual awakening)
ah so
i was comfortable, so i felt better air fresh it was cool..
(insert status from 8 am Saturday) in pain like 18 hrs a day with this
glandular, worst night last night after the hospital, this barely sleeping is
driving me insane, angry, upset.. and they say it might last months!! whow.. :o
everythings a struggle, and the worst bit might be iv run out of any money i
had besides the youth allowance fortnightly payment which never lasts till the
next payment.. any job i get i cant work like this anyway.. i cant do anything
no energy :( im not even sitting my last exam.
^^^^^ compare to status that
night below;
for
the last 4 days only 4 hours of eyes open possible, then 5 nights of laying
cringe eyed in helish pain with probably 4 hours sleep tops.
today was
absolutly amazing!! ohh you slept well ben? NO I HEALED! today i touched an
angel !! angels do not speak ! any words are your construct, an overwhelming
ecstatical flux entering through heart occurs, joyous tears emerge.
(no! i do
not care for conventional notions of god angels or hell/devil etc)
BLESSED
ARE THE WAYSHOWERS!!!!! the bringers of the new.
I still felt
about the same feeling of “glandular fever” you guessed it. Remember the 4 hours
of resembled normal functionality daily.
ah i decide i really need to
clean that car after i was done in uni.
um i went shopping, then i got a
haircut and my beard gone! Because the fever had them extra annoying me at
night.
the healing began to occur here, i will reference back to this stuff
so remember this whole days occurrences which the point of the whole writing is
to explain (according to kant’ style duty ethics).
i felt pretty alright
after the hair cut an chat with the hair dresser mm the warm water at the start
with shampoo to, felt good ish at the end or better.
now, then i sat in
my car and in a light thought mood rather than the usual heavy thought mood of
pain, i thought ok what next :) first smile since Monday. I knew my time was
limited, what other tasks before i collapse as usual? I thought.
I go
clean car vacuum style.
I then go climb a steep but reasonably short
distance up a hill for reasons i wont divulge here. This was also good the drive
out was awesome the views ahhhhhhhhh you know ..ahh breathing easier.... hmm i
feel a bit better more now, mm i shall take a snack of the fetta, sundried
tomato and olives in oil antipasto mix. I also bought apple juice because the
plain water by large amounts that i was needing due to the fever had become you
know that tasteless kind of taste and you mentally don’t want it anymore..
the juice helped in little sips.. hmm felt alright ! i was of to the mountain.. so
i finish going up the hill on the mountain, sooooo nice that rainforest ! made
me feel nice bar the panting from climbing on constricted glandular energy
breathing lol. But even driving up
the mountain to get to where i needed to go.. awesome so blissful..
by
this time i felt reasonable and on the way to the mountain also reasonably
ok> symptoms lower quite low, yet making themselves known ! and pulsating in
and out described this time of this day, the previous days the symptoms were
constant not basically disappearing and then turning on. I had no panadol.
It must be said that always the
less energy feeling was present, the base glandular fever symptom in some form
or power. The pulsating was more with the thought/pains, what was happening
every night i slept was over analysis of like things ‘to do’ and ‘dots’ i was
joining. This was because it took the mind or attempted to off the severe pain i
think, but it just stopped me sleeping, these negative analytical thought
patterns occurred during the days- general feeling like shit feeling and
thinking all moody you know as well, haha like correcting things of my own and
others in my head. This pulsated off on instead of just staying on at the
mountain and during the drive to it.
then i sat in the sun on the way
back in one spot because my eyes started to feel a bit tired, i thought oh here
we go into the ‘5th hour’ as every other day
thats it im done for the day obviously, well ill see and pull up and RELX
looking at the river trees and sun coming through and hitting me, warming me,
not in my eyes ( later in my eyes which is known as sun gazing for bliss which
sure as hell works!, you will read that soon)
ok so i took off again to
make it back toward the coast, i thought i will have to sleep now i bet, i
started getting a bit tired again just down the road i stopped and sat in the
sun again as the wind gave me the start of fever chill, every day a chill wave
shivering upon me would start the onset of the fever in the ‘5th hour’.
it made me re energize i thought okadily dadily lol lets
hit the beautiful road again! (i love my freedom by myself as im able to
completely relax- sometimes i get bored on long trips but not this time and not
usually)
through this whole day even as im getting BETTER i don’t feel
exactly great or thaaaat flash or good.. im getting tired occasionally and need
to rub my eyes pressure point them etc rub my forehead and neck etc, but less
than the other days
i go and do washing and check the surf, so many
people around, creates major crown chakra block and smaller heart blocks. I go
rather quickly down the road step onto beach where less people hurry back to car
because no surf and coldish sand.
YOU should be taking note of how i am
explaining everything “cold sand” i hurried back to the car it wasn’t so
comfortable... if you haven’t been and i understand there’s a bit here ! but im
explaining this properly as best i reasonably quickly can (mind you my battery
is now run out from being ¾ charged so must have taken 60 minutes till here to
write roughly or longer)
washing done it’s like 3 or 3:30 i think
the clock said.. i thought wow i
am doing real well!!!!!!
i sat 10 minutes in Laundromat and closed eyes
lent back on wall no sleep.
go back to car sort washing sit there for a bit
and look at the back of Cabarita and enjoying where i was not many people around
to.. people seem really to make me ill with their gawking and taboos and fear
and societal norm thought forms etc. Rememberrrr i mentioned that earlier i like
being free with no people.
so the spot was nice ish i felt alright ! no
fever as usual?? Huh .. hm not cold.. and yet only one shirt, i had 3 on while
sleeping due to fever Friday night.
i closed my eyes for another few
minutes.. i was waiting on what to do next ..shower and fill water at university
i think.. i went and typed this and filled up water. I typed to just below.
i forgot to mention i had a shower at uni before going to the mountain
further up in the reading.
its now 8 pm and i still feel pretty good
however my crown chakra has just re blocked a bit because im stressing my eyes
by keeping them open now, i haven’t slept well but hellishly! Worst 5 sleeps
consequentially of my life.
i just went for a run however proving im still
energetically filled with the light, the other days were such stark contrast and
nights, well i can only see how tonight goes, then in the morning im going to
finish this all up
So what happened was to not leave u hanging, i was
coming back from my washing on the way to uni to fill water bottle etc, i got
the sunset peaking blurting through the woods paper bark trees on the way out of
Cabarita :D this was topping it all of i felt goooood ( this lack of energy eye
soreness clearly has to do with the sleep mostly, but how come i suddenly feel
energetic! :d all happy and shit and not having those negative analysing
thoughts anymore!?)
BECAUSE i touched an angel !!! (i do not care for
conventional ideologies of heaven, god, angels, hell/devil etc)
just after
those woods before hitting the highway.. angels do not speak words, you
construct words angels communicate! In vowels or tonally, when this happened i
was still in that oh what a cool sunset niiice then a ecstatical flux occurs
entering through the heart its OVERWHELMING, it’s like a deep wave entering
through the heart that consumes you completely for a couple of seconds (no you
can’t count because IT the occurrence is the only thing you conscious or able to
control or think of etc), joyous tears emerge :)
this was at sunset from my
perspective so around sunset (insert time here) i think just after pm maybe
anyway after that! Since i totally felt better my crown chakra (see google tech
talks meditation where lady with PHD shows you the soft hole on your skull
where the energy comes out- i know this from practicing that kundalini
meditation myself) finally for the first time in the glandular experience and
before! Unblocked totally!
i was in joyous tears the whole way back to
tweed very high ! no bung thoughts no bad feeling nothing!!!!!!!!!! As if
glandular disappear.
then
i got to uni and felt compelled to write this fresh, i actually felt like
writing for the first time in a while to! I was” ebullient” in a ‘nirvanic’
feeling etc. Buoyant.
er
im still sitting here after my run at 8: 15 pm now feeling good (my eyes
have stopped hurting !due to the rememberance of the feeling the ‘angel’
touching’, now my necks just saw because im looking down for so long, im out im
going to take a lovely shower!
i just hope that tonight isn’t hellish!
But im sure it shouldn’t be i will add that past here in the morning. Night
:DDDDDDDDD
i am completely astounded.. honestly this rapid change is not
meant to occur in glandular.
i will also add below in an addendum tid
bits and details. Like i knew the
whole day me feeling better also an i thought mainly! Having to do with being
myself (blinking weirdly if i had to to remove eye pain or something, NOT being
around people with their taboos and gawking and energy steeling and shit!, being
in nature by myself was great, .... jesus did not say “i am the way” he said I
am is the way”. This is what was again reiterated to me today.
blessed
are the wayshowers.. bringers of the 7th heaven.
tid bits; it’s the next
day now Sunday the27/05/2012 feeling fine ;) and finishing this up. Ah one
mention to be fair i last night Saturday night had an actual sleep! Ah like 7
hours straight at least i think more, however biological lag was expected by me,
so i was wondering if that would be just tired ness or what.. ah i woke up all
wet but i wasn’t shivering i wasn’t cold i wasn’t feverish.. but really wet, i
was wierded out and fixed myself and fine from then, ah since yesterday and
mainly the angel touch im still adamant ah because i am me and can feel me, how
the symptoms are all dropped off and gone, every other night and day was
basically THE SAME, now its like opposite kind of thing, except my pee is still
a bit yellow..but like i am filled with energy and such the concentrations fine,
i slept!!!!!!!! Bloody hell i needed that, i feel sane, i don’t want to kill
myself, im not in pain, basically all the stuff has switched to not being
present. The sweat was strange because every other time every night was about
the same and accompanied with the boiling forehead and body etc and shivering,
ah last night i happily was walking outside the other nights i couldn’t go out
an piss barely id start shaking! Etc.
In the end i got high enough to
touch my angel which is andromedan vibration (ah i know when its it- the short
imagery after the touching was the usual purple light- see my pineal and crown
were opened! This is the crux thats why i felt so fantastic- if i could maintain
this state id always feel fantastic point is no one always can maintain that
state whether glandular or not so chakras will reblock ..grrr specially due to
me having to do one last assignment), Andromeda is the new enlightenment for
people on earth i would think our whole galaxy to as she moves in
particular way and communicates with milky way.
to get me high
enough was all the stuff i done notice how i said i felt a bit better here and
there, and you know its hard to accurately write about time-lined events and
include all the details i feel i did good enough because usually people say I’ve
written to much and or they can’t understand (usually due to me using to big
words though)
Conclusion:
well since paralabolic human awakening i don’t get sick anymore asin
the flu and colds etc which partly you can read about in my health note and
meditation note on my consciousazine page but very partly, one must experience
paralabola intensely and flow with it. FROM WHAT IV SEEN FROM SOCIETAL JOKERS MOST CANT DO THIS(they will be taking their whole
lives 30 yrs 20 yrs 10 years from now to do what the wayshowers did in the
compression period,, er hence compression period, and im glad its over because
im stuffed i wana holiday- check consciousazine i done that information while
full time study) . Im not going into it, but hey watch the gold ring series on
youtube they have :D 100 10 minute videos on this compression period 07 -2012
and the andromedan enlightenment.
gold ring videos are very densely packed
with information and big new words and concepts so its likely most of you are
not ready for it but go for it !
don’t be a fool shitter and go ohh i don’t
understand.. well do as i did when i didn’t understand, go google search the
words you need to understand and do the study you need to!
SO getting
myself to a mental state where i was stable enough to control my thoughts and
etc was done by relaxing and doing what i wanted then my energy started purging
this biology of glandular fever and then strengthened my mental body then
finally my mental aspects were able to control the biology (at least farrrrrrrr
better than the days previous) then i was in a state of basically being normal i
could finally activate higher systems as the pain wasn’t blocking them and the
angel banged it over ! and im pretty sweet now ! Basically normal functionality
but im tired because i havnt slept well (in hellish ways) for 5 nights.
if your now going ahh you didn’t tell me anything much about the goings on with
the angel how do i do this when i have glandular, haha if your a spurious
materialist sleepwalker you’ve got less hope i don’t know maybe your in touch
with your one, if not maybe the experience will happen due to the sickness :D ,
but if your you know very devolved and backward and enslaved mentally i doubt
you have much of a hope .. :S because you have got all the wrong ideas and are
brainwashed and body washed.. ah you’ll have to have paralabola (exponential
curvature of the being- spiritual awakenment) ..
if ever you see me use
things and not explain them thats why i made all the notes i did and you go look
them up there and do your own research, but don’t stay stuck in your low
societal biological only spurious materialist views and beliefs of the reality
your in.. because you in like a ball lol that you thinks reality and then
actually reality is much larger- energetic – mental .. if your not following..
unlucky im not going to turn this into my notes. Go look at them.
oh and yes this < is a week or so later and im SCHWEEEEEEEET 2/06/2012
i was able to mentally crawl high enough to touch my angelics and healed instantly that afternoon.. :)
7th heaven bringer heals within 7 days :P
ANGELS PLAY AND ANGELS WRITE CODE ALL DAY.. ;P
STAR; Super Toriodal Axiom Reverberter
star being angels of light.
Firstly non of
this ‘defies’ medical industry or defies medicine. Merely medical industries
knowledge.
You need to remember
the key words, you may have to re read due to this.
Thats how you will follow
the remarkable nature of the healing!!!!!!
on Monday 14/05/2012 i suddenly
had to leave the computer lab as for the last 20 minutes my energy completly
zapped out of me it seemed, i thought oh im tired hey ye hi have been working
hard making consciousazine.com
i suddenly felt nausea and had to leave..
As it turned out the tiredness was from glandular fever which i suspected
the very next day since i immediately couldn’t sleep and didn’t barely at all
that night and had had glandular years ago.
next day i am hammered! Cant do
anything tiny coughs (no flem was present no snot, i only coughed from dry
throat lack of hydration relaxation) hurt my head intensely! All the other
symptoms of glandular sore muscles glands etc, cant remember if diahrea was present that day but every other
day or night after it def was.
any who glandular takes weeks and
sometimes months to finish up and thats well known.
Yaa i thought of fuck
here we go...not cool.
I decide as currently at the time i was in a
purifying stage (seems others were to anyway not making a correlation anything
but personal) to try heal myself.. so i had little money left till Friday, went
and got some stuff like turmeric had manuka honey bought cinnamon, bananas,
lemons, there may have been something else i cant remember but the points a
little mute so meh.
ah so i took all this stuff .. ehh good effects? Well im
sure in the long run but i didn’t take much of it all you know i wasn’t going to
eat turmeric and cinnamon all day haha i ate one lemon and ah yes a shallot
onion and some ginger raw..
ah that day next day that night etc PAIN.
Lol didn’t do anything much at all.
ok the pattern was exactly the same
daily. I said only once or twice no get up and go do this or that etc (only once
or twice because it was futile lol) but i couldn’t past the mark stay un nausic,
fever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shivering while boiling – insert all symptoms here.
the mark was about the same every day from Tuesday 15/05/2012. Only stay
open eyed sitting or standing or lying for 5 hours max, in that 5 hours i felt
pretty bad though (4 hours of anything resembling normal functionality- i mean
you cant even concentrate! I didn’t take in anything from my applications
development study lol in 3 days of this haha) nausic, head hurt when i tiny
coughed (one off coughs), zapped of energy. 5 hours every day i watched the hour
on the clock according to when i entered university and left or woke up and
drove to university and left
university.
the number 5 hour being tremendously“fucked” or hellish.
i didn’t have concentration to even bother to see ok its 11:30 and im
leaving at 3:30
but its a quite accurate approximation 5 hours tops! in the
5thstruggle starts with
nausea etc so i try see if it will fade for a while but no so i go.. end up
leaving in that 5th hour.
POINT HERE: 4
hours of anything resembling normal functionality During the day times:
Tuesday 22/05/2012
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday 25/05/2012
Friday around 4pm i go to hospital
after my apps development exam! Which was a painful thing luckily only multiple
choice, unfortunately in my state painful.
in waiting room couldn’t not
close eyes and ‘try’ to sleep in a painful manner.
nurse? Counter lady sees
my pain gives me 2 panadol whilst i wait for doctor.
that would have been
awesome before the hectic pain, and then suddenly the doctor comes lol.. ahh
cool haha
im extremely sweating and shaking while hot; fever. She asks me
heaps of questions incase its
TB. I say from start no glandular fever, she
says yeh it could be. This took a while, then she told me wait for your blood
results which may take an hour or more, i go ok, LOL GOES TO LISTEN to music! In
more comfortable car, STUFF waiting rooms the place of insanity boredom
right?
get to my car start to feel better quickly after a few minutes due
to double panadol. I actually felt
pretty good the pain was well subsided the pills were doing their job
J went and dropped surfboards at my storage shed. Get back go wait
in waiting room for a bloody hour and a half, still feel good though.
results: glandular fever, however have another blood test ina
week. She was concerned because my eratic talk which was from my shaky
insides and fever when she first examined me and crazy sweatiness, that it may
be more, i was not able to be relaxed i was showing signs of anxiety and all
..mm ya think.
POINT before the panadol (and again that night !)
extreme! Glandular fever, because i wanted to heal myself and didn’t have money
to buy panadol so i thought i never purchase it yet i did after my final release
that night after the result go get some to find it being $3.. heh. Oh by the way
i took another panadol sometime that night before i had a short sleep and then
woke up again as usual to lay in pain.
Anyway, Friday night 25/05/2012,
absolutely horrid as the other nights and i even had an extra crazy shaky
session i barely ended with controlling..
so Saturday morning 26/05/2012
8 am earliest i got up because the least i slept and the car got wet inside it
was a horrid scenario i slept next to the hospital“incase”+ plus driving to much
for me at that time..
Saturday starts of pretty much feeling as the other
days, except it was great to get out of that car which was stinky an wet and ew
fuck man... sweaty t shirts and stuff..
air was nice an fresh an no
people! Around (i don’t like being around people that much these days since the
paralabolic human awakening iv experienced aka spiritual awakening)
ah so
i was comfortable, so i felt better air fresh it was cool..
(insert status from 8 am Saturday) in pain like 18 hrs a day with this
glandular, worst night last night after the hospital, this barely sleeping is
driving me insane, angry, upset.. and they say it might last months!! whow.. :o
everythings a struggle, and the worst bit might be iv run out of any money i
had besides the youth allowance fortnightly payment which never lasts till the
next payment.. any job i get i cant work like this anyway.. i cant do anything
no energy :( im not even sitting my last exam.
^^^^^ compare to status that
night below;
for
the last 4 days only 4 hours of eyes open possible, then 5 nights of laying
cringe eyed in helish pain with probably 4 hours sleep tops.
today was
absolutly amazing!! ohh you slept well ben? NO I HEALED! today i touched an
angel !! angels do not speak ! any words are your construct, an overwhelming
ecstatical flux entering through heart occurs, joyous tears emerge.
(no! i do
not care for conventional notions of god angels or hell/devil etc)
BLESSED
ARE THE WAYSHOWERS!!!!! the bringers of the new.
I still felt
about the same feeling of “glandular fever” you guessed it. Remember the 4 hours
of resembled normal functionality daily.
ah i decide i really need to
clean that car after i was done in uni.
um i went shopping, then i got a
haircut and my beard gone! Because the fever had them extra annoying me at
night.
the healing began to occur here, i will reference back to this stuff
so remember this whole days occurrences which the point of the whole writing is
to explain (according to kant’ style duty ethics).
i felt pretty alright
after the hair cut an chat with the hair dresser mm the warm water at the start
with shampoo to, felt good ish at the end or better.
now, then i sat in
my car and in a light thought mood rather than the usual heavy thought mood of
pain, i thought ok what next :) first smile since Monday. I knew my time was
limited, what other tasks before i collapse as usual? I thought.
I go
clean car vacuum style.
I then go climb a steep but reasonably short
distance up a hill for reasons i wont divulge here. This was also good the drive
out was awesome the views ahhhhhhhhh you know ..ahh breathing easier.... hmm i
feel a bit better more now, mm i shall take a snack of the fetta, sundried
tomato and olives in oil antipasto mix. I also bought apple juice because the
plain water by large amounts that i was needing due to the fever had become you
know that tasteless kind of taste and you mentally don’t want it anymore..
the juice helped in little sips.. hmm felt alright ! i was of to the mountain.. so
i finish going up the hill on the mountain, sooooo nice that rainforest ! made
me feel nice bar the panting from climbing on constricted glandular energy
breathing lol. But even driving up
the mountain to get to where i needed to go.. awesome so blissful..
by
this time i felt reasonable and on the way to the mountain also reasonably
ok> symptoms lower quite low, yet making themselves known ! and pulsating in
and out described this time of this day, the previous days the symptoms were
constant not basically disappearing and then turning on. I had no panadol.
It must be said that always the
less energy feeling was present, the base glandular fever symptom in some form
or power. The pulsating was more with the thought/pains, what was happening
every night i slept was over analysis of like things ‘to do’ and ‘dots’ i was
joining. This was because it took the mind or attempted to off the severe pain i
think, but it just stopped me sleeping, these negative analytical thought
patterns occurred during the days- general feeling like shit feeling and
thinking all moody you know as well, haha like correcting things of my own and
others in my head. This pulsated off on instead of just staying on at the
mountain and during the drive to it.
then i sat in the sun on the way
back in one spot because my eyes started to feel a bit tired, i thought oh here
we go into the ‘5th hour’ as every other day
thats it im done for the day obviously, well ill see and pull up and RELX
looking at the river trees and sun coming through and hitting me, warming me,
not in my eyes ( later in my eyes which is known as sun gazing for bliss which
sure as hell works!, you will read that soon)
ok so i took off again to
make it back toward the coast, i thought i will have to sleep now i bet, i
started getting a bit tired again just down the road i stopped and sat in the
sun again as the wind gave me the start of fever chill, every day a chill wave
shivering upon me would start the onset of the fever in the ‘5th hour’.
it made me re energize i thought okadily dadily lol lets
hit the beautiful road again! (i love my freedom by myself as im able to
completely relax- sometimes i get bored on long trips but not this time and not
usually)
through this whole day even as im getting BETTER i don’t feel
exactly great or thaaaat flash or good.. im getting tired occasionally and need
to rub my eyes pressure point them etc rub my forehead and neck etc, but less
than the other days
i go and do washing and check the surf, so many
people around, creates major crown chakra block and smaller heart blocks. I go
rather quickly down the road step onto beach where less people hurry back to car
because no surf and coldish sand.
YOU should be taking note of how i am
explaining everything “cold sand” i hurried back to the car it wasn’t so
comfortable... if you haven’t been and i understand there’s a bit here ! but im
explaining this properly as best i reasonably quickly can (mind you my battery
is now run out from being ¾ charged so must have taken 60 minutes till here to
write roughly or longer)
washing done it’s like 3 or 3:30 i think
the clock said.. i thought wow i
am doing real well!!!!!!
i sat 10 minutes in Laundromat and closed eyes
lent back on wall no sleep.
go back to car sort washing sit there for a bit
and look at the back of Cabarita and enjoying where i was not many people around
to.. people seem really to make me ill with their gawking and taboos and fear
and societal norm thought forms etc. Rememberrrr i mentioned that earlier i like
being free with no people.
so the spot was nice ish i felt alright ! no
fever as usual?? Huh .. hm not cold.. and yet only one shirt, i had 3 on while
sleeping due to fever Friday night.
i closed my eyes for another few
minutes.. i was waiting on what to do next ..shower and fill water at university
i think.. i went and typed this and filled up water. I typed to just below.
i forgot to mention i had a shower at uni before going to the mountain
further up in the reading.
its now 8 pm and i still feel pretty good
however my crown chakra has just re blocked a bit because im stressing my eyes
by keeping them open now, i haven’t slept well but hellishly! Worst 5 sleeps
consequentially of my life.
i just went for a run however proving im still
energetically filled with the light, the other days were such stark contrast and
nights, well i can only see how tonight goes, then in the morning im going to
finish this all up
So what happened was to not leave u hanging, i was
coming back from my washing on the way to uni to fill water bottle etc, i got
the sunset peaking blurting through the woods paper bark trees on the way out of
Cabarita :D this was topping it all of i felt goooood ( this lack of energy eye
soreness clearly has to do with the sleep mostly, but how come i suddenly feel
energetic! :d all happy and shit and not having those negative analysing
thoughts anymore!?)
BECAUSE i touched an angel !!! (i do not care for
conventional ideologies of heaven, god, angels, hell/devil etc)
just after
those woods before hitting the highway.. angels do not speak words, you
construct words angels communicate! In vowels or tonally, when this happened i
was still in that oh what a cool sunset niiice then a ecstatical flux occurs
entering through the heart its OVERWHELMING, it’s like a deep wave entering
through the heart that consumes you completely for a couple of seconds (no you
can’t count because IT the occurrence is the only thing you conscious or able to
control or think of etc), joyous tears emerge :)
this was at sunset from my
perspective so around sunset (insert time here) i think just after pm maybe
anyway after that! Since i totally felt better my crown chakra (see google tech
talks meditation where lady with PHD shows you the soft hole on your skull
where the energy comes out- i know this from practicing that kundalini
meditation myself) finally for the first time in the glandular experience and
before! Unblocked totally!
i was in joyous tears the whole way back to
tweed very high ! no bung thoughts no bad feeling nothing!!!!!!!!!! As if
glandular disappear.
then
i got to uni and felt compelled to write this fresh, i actually felt like
writing for the first time in a while to! I was” ebullient” in a ‘nirvanic’
feeling etc. Buoyant.
er
im still sitting here after my run at 8: 15 pm now feeling good (my eyes
have stopped hurting !due to the rememberance of the feeling the ‘angel’
touching’, now my necks just saw because im looking down for so long, im out im
going to take a lovely shower!
i just hope that tonight isn’t hellish!
But im sure it shouldn’t be i will add that past here in the morning. Night
:DDDDDDDDD
i am completely astounded.. honestly this rapid change is not
meant to occur in glandular.
i will also add below in an addendum tid
bits and details. Like i knew the
whole day me feeling better also an i thought mainly! Having to do with being
myself (blinking weirdly if i had to to remove eye pain or something, NOT being
around people with their taboos and gawking and energy steeling and shit!, being
in nature by myself was great, .... jesus did not say “i am the way” he said I
am is the way”. This is what was again reiterated to me today.
blessed
are the wayshowers.. bringers of the 7th heaven.
tid bits; it’s the next
day now Sunday the27/05/2012 feeling fine ;) and finishing this up. Ah one
mention to be fair i last night Saturday night had an actual sleep! Ah like 7
hours straight at least i think more, however biological lag was expected by me,
so i was wondering if that would be just tired ness or what.. ah i woke up all
wet but i wasn’t shivering i wasn’t cold i wasn’t feverish.. but really wet, i
was wierded out and fixed myself and fine from then, ah since yesterday and
mainly the angel touch im still adamant ah because i am me and can feel me, how
the symptoms are all dropped off and gone, every other night and day was
basically THE SAME, now its like opposite kind of thing, except my pee is still
a bit yellow..but like i am filled with energy and such the concentrations fine,
i slept!!!!!!!! Bloody hell i needed that, i feel sane, i don’t want to kill
myself, im not in pain, basically all the stuff has switched to not being
present. The sweat was strange because every other time every night was about
the same and accompanied with the boiling forehead and body etc and shivering,
ah last night i happily was walking outside the other nights i couldn’t go out
an piss barely id start shaking! Etc.
In the end i got high enough to
touch my angel which is andromedan vibration (ah i know when its it- the short
imagery after the touching was the usual purple light- see my pineal and crown
were opened! This is the crux thats why i felt so fantastic- if i could maintain
this state id always feel fantastic point is no one always can maintain that
state whether glandular or not so chakras will reblock ..grrr specially due to
me having to do one last assignment), Andromeda is the new enlightenment for
people on earth i would think our whole galaxy to as she moves in
particular way and communicates with milky way.
to get me high
enough was all the stuff i done notice how i said i felt a bit better here and
there, and you know its hard to accurately write about time-lined events and
include all the details i feel i did good enough because usually people say I’ve
written to much and or they can’t understand (usually due to me using to big
words though)
Conclusion:
well since paralabolic human awakening i don’t get sick anymore asin
the flu and colds etc which partly you can read about in my health note and
meditation note on my consciousazine page but very partly, one must experience
paralabola intensely and flow with it. FROM WHAT IV SEEN FROM SOCIETAL JOKERS MOST CANT DO THIS(they will be taking their whole
lives 30 yrs 20 yrs 10 years from now to do what the wayshowers did in the
compression period,, er hence compression period, and im glad its over because
im stuffed i wana holiday- check consciousazine i done that information while
full time study) . Im not going into it, but hey watch the gold ring series on
youtube they have :D 100 10 minute videos on this compression period 07 -2012
and the andromedan enlightenment.
gold ring videos are very densely packed
with information and big new words and concepts so its likely most of you are
not ready for it but go for it !
don’t be a fool shitter and go ohh i don’t
understand.. well do as i did when i didn’t understand, go google search the
words you need to understand and do the study you need to!
SO getting
myself to a mental state where i was stable enough to control my thoughts and
etc was done by relaxing and doing what i wanted then my energy started purging
this biology of glandular fever and then strengthened my mental body then
finally my mental aspects were able to control the biology (at least farrrrrrrr
better than the days previous) then i was in a state of basically being normal i
could finally activate higher systems as the pain wasn’t blocking them and the
angel banged it over ! and im pretty sweet now ! Basically normal functionality
but im tired because i havnt slept well (in hellish ways) for 5 nights.
if your now going ahh you didn’t tell me anything much about the goings on with
the angel how do i do this when i have glandular, haha if your a spurious
materialist sleepwalker you’ve got less hope i don’t know maybe your in touch
with your one, if not maybe the experience will happen due to the sickness :D ,
but if your you know very devolved and backward and enslaved mentally i doubt
you have much of a hope .. :S because you have got all the wrong ideas and are
brainwashed and body washed.. ah you’ll have to have paralabola (exponential
curvature of the being- spiritual awakenment) ..
if ever you see me use
things and not explain them thats why i made all the notes i did and you go look
them up there and do your own research, but don’t stay stuck in your low
societal biological only spurious materialist views and beliefs of the reality
your in.. because you in like a ball lol that you thinks reality and then
actually reality is much larger- energetic – mental .. if your not following..
unlucky im not going to turn this into my notes. Go look at them.
oh and yes this < is a week or so later and im SCHWEEEEEEEET 2/06/2012
i was able to mentally crawl high enough to touch my angelics and healed instantly that afternoon.. :)
7th heaven bringer heals within 7 days :P
ANGELS PLAY AND ANGELS WRITE CODE ALL DAY.. ;P
STAR; Super Toriodal Axiom Reverberter
star being angels of light.